mm (( xanga )) is gay.

im done<33

bye  bye

for the chance to be with you, i'd gladly risk it all.

you take away the old*
(' show me the new)
 and i feel like i can fly
when i stand next to u *

:¨`·´¨:* i wanna grab you
  `·.·´:¨`.´¨: by the arms
   -:|:- `·.·´ and kiss you so hard

& SHE KNEW NOTHiNG ABOUT LiFE BUT
SHE KNEW EVERYTHiNG ABOUT LiViNG

i love the way things are heading.For once in my life, I feel..complete. I feel so alive. God has been doing some amazing things in my life lately, and i've been gettin stronger with my walk with him. I could honesty say that right now I couldn't ask for nething other than wishing that my father and I were closer but not everything is the way u think it should be.I really don't write in here much ne more but maybe thats bc no one reads them anymore but ohwell. I've also been thinkin alot. about alot of things, about my family,about my friends,about the person i've become. I guess as you grow up you start to relize who was really ur friend and who was just pretending to be because they liked the stuff that you did. or the way you did things, but see its not even about that. It doesnt matter how many friends you have or how many ppl like u its about staying true to yourself and about having atleast one real friend that will never give up on you, and if you don't have that then u dont have nething..i've learned the hard way...but God will give you the strength to get back up.and if u dont have enough strength he will be your strength..he will be ur stronger tower..if there was one thing that I would change..it would be my fathers relationship with his family..I pray that he will know what he is doing to us and know that he is makin things harder on us..its like I have no father because hes never here. always to bizy working.and when he is home he is on the computer and doesnt pay any attention to us...i miss him being around.....but what can u do about it...

Lord I pray that you give me the strength and the courage to help my family out as much as I can. I pray that you help my mother and some how help me find a way that I can make her happier..I miss seeing her smile...

don't ask God for an easier life     <3
ask him to make you a bigger person

There's a point in life when you get tired of
chasing everyone & trying to fix everything.
But it's n o t giving up, it's realizing that you
don't need certain people & all of their |[ c r a p ]|.

when yah feel like giving up;;
remember why you held on
``..in the first place

UPDATE ©

The thing that means the m o s t is the hardest to say  - - where
everything is said in silence because the emotions behind what
we really want to say are just too overwhelming <3

it`s quite amazing how much just one person can change who you are on the inside. <33and change you're outlook on life.

ah tomorrow is school and I really don't want to go. I just don't like heath too much. Their strict and the teachers arnt the best, but ohwell you can't really change it.well this weekend has been really fun on friday I spent the night with sage and garren and drewski came over and sage let me ride her golf cart, ew it was exciting! and saturday garren came over and hung out with lisa and i and we watched madagascar ah i love that movie i couldn't stop laughing, then sunday went to church, then went to mcdonalds with lisa and my daddy! ©

well I didn't go to school today, i guess i didnt really want to and i wanted to spend more time with my dad.i never get to see him, I hate it. I wish we could be closer. but hopefuly things will change one day..

don't  lose  hope ©©
WHEN IT GETS DARK, THE STARS COME OUT

daddy

AMOR   VINCINT   OMNIA //
,, love  conquers  everythinqq©

©©
If the world hates you, you know that it has hated me before it hated you.  If you were of the world, the world would love its own. But because you are not of the world, since I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.John 15:18-19©

from my memory, I'm losing track
of all the days that meant so much to me.©

wow. garren((burrito))

"It was pouring rain, your mom came to pick us up but the car was like… way across the street. So you grabbed my hand & we ran for it. & it was probably only about 10 seconds or so, but when we got in the car… all i could think about was the fact that you held my hand" -DAWSONS CREEK

&&when we were laying there just talking..
just looking at each other, you weren't just looking at me;;
you were looking into my soul...&& you still didn't turn away. 
that's when i knew everything was going to be okay.

LiFE iSN'T AB0UT H0W Y0U L0VE & WH0 Y0U HURT ; iT'S AB0UT KEEPiNG Y0UR TRUST, it'S AB0UT WHAT Y0U SAY & WHAT Y0U MEAN, iT'S AB0UT JUDGEMENTS Y0U PASS & WHY, iT'S AB0UT JEAL0USY, FEAR, & REVENGE, BUT M0ST 0F ALL iT'S AB0UT USiNG Y0UR LiFE T0 T0UCH 0R P0iS0N 0THER PE0PLES HEARTS iN A WAY THAT C0ULD HAVE NEVER 0CCURRED AL0NE..

There will never be another you <3

GOD YOU'RE IN CONTROL, YOU'RE MY STRONGER TOWER

and no other guy in the world ever
made me feel like my heart's on fire

your kisses make the
world fade away *

without you i'll never feel
 the love inside of me
- - Ben Jelen . . .<3

I FEEL LIKE UPDATING BECAUSE I AM EXTREMELY BORED.well i don't like xanga anymore but whatever lol.theres not much to say except that everything is going amazing. I mean I have everything I need.

you're weird . obnoxious . crazy 
and a complete idiot
yet , i still love you         <3

live for the moments that bring butterflies
to your stomach && a smile to your face*

everyone knows im in over my head for you

life can be extremely crazy sometimes. you can make mistakes and do things you said you would never do, or things you wouldn't do until later on in life until you were totaly comfortable with it. You can fall from God and not even mean to, and miss such an incredible love that can only be found in one place.Jesus Christ. you can say that you want to be more like God, but do nothing about it.. thats what I have been doing. saying i want to change and get closer with him but then step back. I don't know why. but I always seem to fall back down when I finaly feel im in the right..Lisa and I have been talking a lot about this. and this is something thats reallly important to me...i gotta try harder..I love you lisajo.<33

i love you Lord<33

I

happy new year..<222

ITS TIME FOR ME TO GO TO BED

UH OH.

hahah

you had to be there

i love this feeliing.hope it never goes away.

SEAN

I don't know wat it is you do, but don't ever stop. your amazing in everyway,.ive never fallen so hard. I love you with evetything I have. and i'd do anything for you.

once you get everything straightened out and you begin to enjoy life .. something happens . it happens because there has to be some kind of event that hits you in the face and makes you realize it's not all gonna come easy . you have to work at love and dry your tears . friends will come and go ; and guess what ? there will be others . not every relationship will be enchanting and perfect , and if it's meant to be, it will always find a way

MmMm BEST friends<333